The Director Role/Self Portrait Reflection

This is a role that I seldom get, but always wanted the opportunity to do for a music video. Its a role I want because the art of music videos molded me into the person I am today. In high school, I would direct my own short films and music videos, but never on a professional level. Now that I am given the chance, I AM going to run with it and make the best product I can imagine. I want my crew to be comfortable with me and to see my vision, and I know the people we have can pull off amazing things and I've already seen initiative from many people. My plan is to give everyone a realistic goal that will create a beautiful end product.

My self portrait is close to my heart because it's where I consider my hometown. When I was young I shuffled through many different homes. I was lucky to stay in one place longer than 6 months. The only place that was consistent in my life for a long time was Holden Beach. For this project, I drove to Holden Beach with my friend to help film me. I feel at peace here because of the nostalgia it holds, but at the same time it holds rejection for me. I feel at ease, yet uneasy when I'm there now because of my sexuality. "JESUS DIED FOR YOU" and "SINNERS GO TO HELL" decorate the landscape of this small beach community. Holden Beach has my unconditional love, yet it rejects me. This is how I feel in society in general, and is why I chose to film myself at this location.

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